surah al mudathhir ayat 3 (51:56)

  seems like, I can't postpone my sem in others words, I have to study huu... I am tired.. so much.. seems like , in my journey to heal I still have to study huu there's really a lot to do.. i'll try one by one... lillah...

 Allah, i'm in a pain, that i don't understand.. forgive me...

 Tarbiyah 25/4/2024 | 3.39 pm she feels a bit suffocated, sad, tired, weak and hopeless, worst, alone these feelings hurts her she's in pain she can't focus reading she lost interest in her reading she just wanna cry if she can ---------------------------------------------------------------- ibrah she's sick and sick is a test it is a sign of Allah's love as maryam did in Quran.. even though she sad , she still trust and obey Allah and Allah tells her through her son, do not be sad anything happens how hurts it may be or how alone you feel Allah knows and understand your pain and your Rabbi never leave you, for what you have done.. so may this pain brings you closer to Him make you clearer only He can love you the way you wanted, and more only He , you can depend on and always will be there you also have comrades but finally, the Only One that truly can understand, forgive and heal you is, Allah O,Allah I am in pain, heal me.. and forgive me..

  Tarbiyah ira 24/4/2024 "if awak nak stay terengganu, awak kena jaga kesihatan awak, badan ni amanah"- ira's precious murabbi "maksud akak? akak nak hantar ira balik  kea?" "if akak nak hantar awak balik , akak tak ada kat sini teman awak kat hospital and trying to help you to heal, dia akan tgk pada keputusan syuro juga in 2 years"- ira's murabbi yg sgt sabar dgn ira "if dalam 2 tahun , ira still mcm ni, ira tak nak balik , akak masukkan jea ira dalam mana ii hospital sakit jiwa" "tak, tapi means awak kena usaha untuk jaga kesihatan awak" "ira bagitau jea, if" "okay akak noted" kisah perbualan ira and her murabbi (siapa ira= rahsia) that perbualan short, hurts and I learnt a lot hee senannya penat sgtt tpi nakk tulis juga apa hana rasaa dari kisah perbualan ira dan murabbinya ibu ayah ira cerai masa ira kecik, and ibu ira agak tak sihat waktu tu, ira rapat dgn ayah, and arwah nenek dgn atok baik jea, cuma a...