surah al mudathhir ayat 3 (51:56)

 Allah, i'm in a pain, that i don't understand.. forgive me...

 Tarbiyah 25/4/2024 | 3.39 pm she feels a bit suffocated, sad, tired, weak and hopeless, worst, alone these feelings hurts her she's in pain she can't focus reading she lost interest in her reading she just wanna cry if she can ---------------------------------------------------------------- ibrah she's sick and sick is a test it is a sign of Allah's love as maryam did in Quran.. even though she sad , she still trust and obey Allah and Allah tells her through her son, do not be sad anything happens how hurts it may be or how alone you feel Allah knows and understand your pain and your Rabbi never leave you, for what you have done.. so may this pain brings you closer to Him make you clearer only He can love you the way you wanted, and more only He , you can depend on and always will be there you also have comrades but finally, the Only One that truly can understand, forgive and heal you is, Allah O,Allah I am in pain, heal me.. and forgive me..

  Tarbiyah ira 24/4/2024 "if awak nak stay terengganu, awak kena jaga kesihatan awak, badan ni amanah"- ira's precious murabbi "maksud akak? akak nak hantar ira balik  kea?" "if akak nak hantar awak balik , akak tak ada kat sini teman awak kat hospital and trying to help you to heal, dia akan tgk pada keputusan syuro juga in 2 years"- ira's murabbi yg sgt sabar dgn ira "if dalam 2 tahun , ira still mcm ni, ira tak nak balik , akak masukkan jea ira dalam mana ii hospital sakit jiwa" "tak, tapi means awak kena usaha untuk jaga kesihatan awak" "ira bagitau jea, if" "okay akak noted" kisah perbualan ira and her murabbi (siapa ira= rahsia) that perbualan short, hurts and I learnt a lot hee senannya penat sgtt tpi nakk tulis juga apa hana rasaa dari kisah perbualan ira dan murabbinya ibu ayah ira cerai masa ira kecik, and ibu ira agak tak sihat waktu tu, ira rapat dgn ayah, and arwah nenek dgn atok baik jea, cuma a...

  mc - kak tia  - kita lah yg sgt ii mencintai Allah, palestine = Allah boleh jea dtgkan angin, malaikat untuk tolong agama Allah,  surah as saffat ayat 83-99 --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- kak izzati - islam sebagai manhaj hidup tajuk yg kita dpt harini , ialah untuk meyakinkan kita yg apa yg kita bawak ni , gagasan dia besar. surah saff ayat 10-13 bgi kita kemenangan = adik, tpi kemenangan sebenarnya kita buat dulu, jihad duluu, bgi kita, adik ramai  definisi kemenangan tapi sebenarnya bila kita buat , keampunan dan syurga tu definisi kemenangan course ii kita, kita rasa belajar tu seiring tak dgn dakwah, ke kita rasa dia separate dgn dakwah? abu ayyub al ansari- nak jihad infiru walau tua, nak terkubur di konstatinopel tpi kat malaysia bila tua , pencen pergi masjid sbb mindset org salah, islam , solat, islam , haji, islam , niqab sedangkan islam tu syumuk bawak adik = aim kita akhirnya USTAZIATUL ALAM...

  O Allah .. I am not okay... Forgive me.... I need You, Ya Rabb

"Sesungguhnya Allah mengasihi kalian lebih dari kasih sayang seorang ibu yang paling penyayang" -Hadis Riwayat She seeing around her, suddenly feeling weak, lost, and alone trying to be firm and keep fighting to her Rabb But still , she's still weak... Then, she reads one of Allah's name Allah Ar Rahman Ar Rahim The One and Only "apa jadi kalau kita lupakan awak sesaat? tak ada apa ii  "apa jadi kalau Allah lupakan kita walau sesaat?..... mati. " - kak ana "Sesungguhnya rahmatKu melampaui murkaKu" Kalimat pertama yang dikatakan Allah pada nabi adam "Semoga Tuhanmu mengasihimu" She's mix feelings the pain she felt starting to ease "Sifat kasih sayang adalah yang pokok, bahawasanya Allah SWT tidak lain bersifat Maha Penyayang, dan bahawasanya rahmat itu merupakan kelaziman zat Allah, seperti halnya ilmu, kuasa, pendengaran, penglihatan, dan kebaikanNya. Merupakan sesuatu yang mustahil apabila Allah SWT tidak bersifat Maha Peny...